hhhmmm.... after long days off keeping this blog quiet, i decide to update again... maybe some may have given up my blogs, maybe some still waiting..... i read some of the past entries..... just that, my history just sucks..... and it really sucks...... friday, 17th june 2005 is the biggest mistake i've ever made in my entire life..... until now, i did not forgive myself and it still has been in my memories.... everytime i took my baby for sunsets, i will think of it..... it's just so shitty......someone used to hear my problems and advice me, but now, seems like everybody is gone..... well, lesson learned, do not take things as granted..... god is great.... he treats people fairly.... and yes, i deserved what i have now.... haizzz..... a one bad entry after a long time..... i just can't get over the past!!!!! arghh!!!!

there is one thing and that one thing is i'm concern off..... i'm getting fucking fat..... i used to eat alot like nobody business and never grow fat but the more older i get, the more easier i can get fat..... fucking fats!!!!!!!! shit~