wake up...

today i woke up at around 1100 hrs... start the day early by taking a shower... after shower, found out it has just started to drizzle... so went to westmall to buy some art stuff... spent around $15 just for my art stuff... bought some paints, markers, brushes and some pens... then, went straight home and start drawing some rubbish... took quite a day to finish a futura drawing... planning is very critical... without proper planning, it will make the drawing worst... so i start of by splashes some paints... waited about an hour and a half to make it dry... then followed by a spray paint on the corner to make it look a bit artistic... and after that, a combination of a freehand sketches... after the sketches is done, i did some touch up using my drawing pen itself to make it look more futura... it look does satisfying to me... i'm not sure myself whether it's nice... i hate to draw during the day... i rather do it at night where my spirit of creativeness come but nowaday im quite an early dreamer... so most of the days i slept early... i dont know when i start to sleep so early... maybe it's the ageing process...

went shopping...

yeap, after doing my art piece, i planned to go to town... and yes, i did... as usual, took a shower before going off... pack some things on my bag and proceed to town... quite a long bus ride from here to town because it's peak hour... should have took the mrt instead but nevermind... taking bus is free... so i don't mind... save my money instead... took 174, a slow and boring ride... took me to plaza singapura almost 45 mins... well, after alighting off the bus, i walk around plaza singapura... went to spotlight to check out some useful things... there's lotsa things to buy but i don't wanna waste my money... so i proceed down to flesh imp... bought some t-shirts there... the salesgirl kinda nice... looks pretty... wore some very sexy... she kinda approach me, assist me on my shirts... wow... quite a good day shopping huh... bought 2 shirts at the cost of $40... quite sometime i never do my shopping...

straight to 4PM

yeap, after seeing myself already broke, went straight to 4PM... took the train because i don't wanna sit on the bus for 45 mins... took the train from dhobby ghaut... thank god, when i enter the train, there's a place vacancy for me to sit... if not, im gonna tire like hell... reached bedok and took bus 60... lucky for me the bus arrive just when i arrived at it's platform... but no seats... well, it's just another 15 mins ride... doesn't matter to me either... reached 4PM and everybody started training already... saufi was on the ibu, i played the anak and mamat doing the gong and canang... we are the percussionist... the rest became the so called aok-aok... burg became the karut... thankfully, we finish everything today... so we just need another rehearsal on saturday before our show on sunday at kallang theatre... finished training at 2230 hrs and went to eunos mrt to take the train home... so here i am, home and tired... finishing off my packing for tommorow chalet, teachers' day retreat... well, it's just another day of fun and enjoy... so let's have the lights out... nitez...

another day of sweet single, cheers...

wake up..

it was 0900 hrs when i had a bad dream... i dunno why these few days im having bad dreams... hhmmm... as usual, went back to sleep and wake up at around 1200 hrs... took a shower and went online... there's not much e-mail to update... so went through planning the november activity for 4PM YVDP... had some discussion with sis on the phone... then called mariah to reconfirm again the budget and after that, everything is set to go... i knew i can make this event successful... as one says, nothing is impossible...

training...

today, takraw is at 1500hrs... as usual, reached school hall at around 1530hrs... syafiq can never be punctual... had some headache before training... i wasn't on form for the training... every service i took went either to the net or went out the line... even coach kinda scold me... then i was really lazy too play match with the juniors... so i just force myself to join them... lucky for me i still got the hang of it...

dikir barat training...

after takraw, i went straight to 4PM for dikir barat training... took bus with hamri and drop at toa payoh and took another bus... reached 4PM at around 1930 and went to the coffeeshop to eat before i start training... not many people turn up for the training... shows on sunday and only few turn up... tommorow is the last training... haven't yet finalise the steps, songs and rythme... hopefully nothing turn up bad...

at night,

i feel very lonely... i don't know why... i knew i made the greatest mistake ever.... but, i did make your day... some people say, guys can do whatever they want to... but, the fact is, even guys have heart... we don't go around breaking people heart... we gave them comfort and we treat them as friends... its the matter of some who just misunderstood... we gave them comfort but we didn't say we gave them love... for whoever i did wrong, i just say the spirit still exist between us just as a friend... never as someone close...



LOVE is undefined, only your heart can describe them...
but, to me, i don't believe in the thing call LOVE, anymore...

it's true to be calling you sweetie,
your sweetness can never runaway from my heart,
from the day i met you,
until now you still exist inside me,
it's never about not liking each other,
it's about fate who never let us together,
i'll be missing you which i already did...

i make a photo slide show ovenight sacrificing my sleep and it can't get to play during the gathering at the chalet... thanks everyone for throwing my bloody energy, my bloody time on that slide...

today was the greatest day ever... we participated in Eunos CC 5 a-side challenge using 4PM's name, 4PM FC... we met at sabri's cribs supposedly at 1000hr but thanks to me, they had to leave at around 1030hr... we reached there exactly at 1058hr... register our team and get ready to prepare for our match... while preparing, we saw many local talent, clubs player... our morale was down but thanks to the team captain, boy, he manage to get us together and play as a team... communication in the team was good... we manage to beat the first team 1-0... then on the second match we took them for a draw at 1-1 and the third, team 'unnamed', so called one of our friends, we manage to get a draw at 1-1... overall, we managed to get a runner-up for group J where we qualify straight for the the 3rd round... on the 3rd round itself, we manage to beat the team at 2-0... after that match, we defintely die die has to go to the quaterfinals... the last team was very hard... we managed to score first, but then, they equalised... time running short and the final whistle was blown... we had to take it to the penalty kicks... hashim's took off first which he drove in the ball easily, followed by boy with a bit of luck, and thirdly, myself... the only thing i remembered i had a phobia of penalty specially when it's my turn to take the penalty... hashim gave some motivation to me and it somehow helps... i kick the ball as hard as possible and for what i see, the ball went straight to the net and it was a relief... on the opposing team turn, mamat saved a penalty but it was not counted... we moved one step out and consider it to be re-taken... the last person to finish off the penalty was syafiq 'pendek'... luckily he scored the goal and it went to the toss coin... thanks again to our team captain, we are through to the quaterfinals... that means, of all the 54 team took part, we manage to be in the top 4 teams... we were very excited because we didn't realise how far we've gone through to reach this position... enduring the pain and suffer, we still manage to be in the quaterfinals... it was very sad that i had to end my game early... i got a cramp at my both quadriceps... i was stunned and couldn't move and the only thing is to bear with the pain... sabri took my position and they played the game as usual... surprisingly, the team we against is the SAFSA team... well, we had no confidence with ourselves and i had a great injury as so, the team morale was down and we lost to a huge score, 3-0... but it was not the end of our day, we had to play for the third and forth placing which we played against a bunch of cameroon fellas... their size compare to our size, definitely they are two times bigger and stronger... they are from the singapore division 1 team and we are from nothing... we played with as if it was like a friendly match and the score 2-0... there nothing much we can do except to defends our side... soon the final whistle blows... we came to the 4th position... we are so damn proud or ourselves... 1st placing goes to the shooting star which was disqualified for using unregistered players and their teams consist of the national player such as ahmad latiff and some national squad... so that means the SAFSA team took over their place and they are the champions of the tournament itself... 3rd placing goes to the singapore division 1 cameroon players... and the 4th placing goes to the none other, 4PM FC... Yeahooo!!! thanks to our manager, Kak Saadah even though we didn't register her as our manager, she manage to go up the stage to take the trophy... and also thanks to fahimah for coming down to our match and support us until we reached this far... and also, thanks to aden, apek kak khalisah and the 4PM staff, yeah, u guys also played a part for the team... gratefully, we won t-shirts and $150 which we oreadi spent it on the night itself eating as much as we want... too bad u guys cant get to share the money... =)

today i feel so disappointed... i just eventually dont know how to deal with everything... everything i've plan is change... i lost my handphone, mp3... after that, im now in a financial breakdown... mum keep asking bout my financial statement... some more, i had to pay her $100 which i borrowed her for kl trip... i need to update my pdl, pursue my driving practical plus... where am i gonna get the money... my phone in missing... how can my boss call me for work??? fuck... everything just turns out negative... i got a maths exam on friday which if i didn't manage to do well, i definitely gonna fail and this saturday mum gonna have kenduri at our house... what the fuck??? how can i study plus cleaning the house at the same time... gosh!! how can i find the time and money to do all these... fuck me!! i screwed up everything...