i was visiting my aunts place and someone told me a story.....

about how blessful grandparents is.....
she is old, yes she is.....
she is hurt, and you just ignore her.....
maybe a day or two you cared,
but after that you leave her like that....
how can she survived.....

bersyukur pada apa yang ada,
redha pada apa yang tiada.....

what a day today.... went to my many palces today..... even went to ustaz ahmad dahri's open house.... they invited the whole family...... but came abit late..... but met lots of "alim" people.... definitely...... im like LOST...... nak kater kiter ni alim, tak lah..... nak kater jahat, pun boleh lah...... met his kids.... the oldest is 19 and dah pass driving beb.... chedebah..... congrats babes...... definitely time plays apart.... hasn't been seeing them for couple of years..... but syukur, we still got to live up till now.....

went to a fren place in the morning..... his mum passed away last thursday at medinah.... it was a shocking news..... like my ustaz says, it was very lucky and throw your last breath at the holy land.... but, i feel sorry for him because he was doing his officer course at OCS when he heard the news...... and the worst thing, he cant really get to see his mum because his mum was leaving for umrah during the ramadhan and stayed till syawal when she had her last beath..... they did the funeral at medinah with the jemaah umrah..... before going to his place, we printed the photo of him and his mum together when he is at the passing out parade on his army uniform..... he just broke his tear when he saw those pics..... he went to his room and lock the door..... just cant imagine, such things would happen..... i feel very sorry for you, but time will heal everything..... just stay strong.....

oh yah i forgot.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EB!!!!!

hehehehehehehehehe...... life is so cool..... why??? because whenever i am upset, i'll spent alot..... spent alot??.... yeap i spent like a rich guy today..... bought many many many many things...... another way to keep me happy is shopping..... who doesn't like shopping right..... yeap, why am i not happy???? because i also don't know..... but the important thing is, im happy now..... what am i talking......

talking about how cool life is, yeap..... i want to be cool..... i thinking of buying a suzuki RM-125 or a RM-250..... i'll not rest my soul until i own one scrambler and at least do a nac-nac, can-can or no hander on the 15 feet launcher.... that's cool rit..... travis pastrana landed a double backflip on X-Games 12.... who is travis pastrana????? he's 23 years old and the baddest rider i've ever seen..... why bad???? a double backflip in a bike??? who on earth can do that???? even the aliens on mars are thinking this guy crazy.... but then, you're unique...... you did something that no one else got the balls to do.....

yea.... thinking bout that...... something cross over my mind...... life is never about working for money, life and career...... im mean my life....... i dont mind eating cereals everyday..... it's the fun we have to earn...... half of our life we waste on education..... being so stupid to sit in class and listen to crap...... but then, think again..... would want to spent another half of your life to be a servant of $$$???? maybe im talking crap and people will say where can i get the money from if i dont work...... yes we do work, but, we work only if we want.... if dont want then dont work....... and yes again, im different..... why??? im haven't yet work...... but the thing is, I WONT WORK FULL-TIME!!!!! dont believe???? then ask someone im very close to...... did i ever love to work???? if im married, i would love to ask my wife to work and i stay at home....... hehehehehehehe..... no lah, maybe i'll would like a bpig for 1 year and earn shitz and we invest the money..... so we dont have to work..... right!!!!!! moral of the story is, dont work..... just eat, sleep and have fun...... cheers~

phewww..... rock climbing today was great..... i love it when im kinda stress, i can do whatever i like...... especially doing things that people don't dare doing and can't do...... this is my life, and doing uncommon things really is cool...... after rockwall, straight awway to sleep..... someone promise to go rockwall gym with me but he can't cos he got to settle some stuff.... he did msg me and i wake up.... straightfully, i shall not make anymore plans with him..... cause this is the second time he blew it..... so the circle of trust is broken.... too bad bro, that's what you want.....

i nearly twist my wrist on the 10m wall when i was about to jump and grap the grab rock..... everything was wrong and i thought so.... my centre of gravity is un balance and the whole procedure was wrong but i still insist on doing..... thank god i was fast enough to let my hands free..... if not, that will be gone..... but at least, we make mistakes and we learn..... on the way back, i thought about having a free-solo climbing..... wait till i turn pro, then i'll think of that..... if not i'll be risking my life...... if u do not know the definition of solo climb, it means climbing without ropes nor belayers..... isn't it cool.....

today was a tough day for me.... database..... what is that.... oh my god.... im not inside accounting class nor business class..... and im heading office after this..... oh my god.... so strees???!!! not yet.... still cool as ever..... why???!!! i just eat..... when ever im sad or disappoint, i just eat.... hehehehe.... so when you're full, you dont have the reason of being mad or angry.... hehehehehehe....... trust me, you not gonna see me in this size for the next few months cos i'm getting fatter and fatter like Mr Adam Sandler said, "eat all i can and i end up like a 4 months pregnant mum...." hhmmmm...

hehehehe..... im very happy today..... let's start with early in the morning...... i've been watching tv alot these days.... why??? because mum just bought me a BIG PLASMA TV..... oh weeee..... now watching dvd shouldn't be a problem....... i was stuck at the big screen for almost two days..... then, yesterday night, i dont believe i ate 5 times...... i mean after buka....... the food is tempting, and im really dont give myself a chance...... forget the diets, forget the muscular body, forget my six packs, forget all the ladies..... i just wanna eat for all i want...... hehehehehehe......

just now in the morning, i went for my sholat aidilfitri....... usually, if we're not in malaysia, our normal place to pray is at masjid al-huda AKA masjid kampong...... my dad used to live at that area and all the orang-orang dulu return to meet their old frens, buddies, gay partners etc....... i was driving to the mosque in the morning breeze and i realise how time really flies....... last time when i was small, i used to tumpang my father's vespa to go to the mosque...... it was so embarassing as everybody is taking car and im the only one who is riding with my dad ob his vespa...... then as time goes by, my father got a bigger bike, which is faster and more glamorous.... then changed to the pick-up...... and now, i can drive on my own..... time really fly fast..... finding a parking at the mosque is hard..... we have to park at the roadside and parallel parking really sucks when the road is narrow..... u need to do a 3-point turn to able to U-turn..... so i need to be aware of free lots and i overshoot.... damn it.... but relax... what's the rush..... the takbir can be heard clearly from inside the car..... and im prepare for the sholat aidilfitri......

sholat aidilfitri was carried out smoothly.... alhamdulillah the weather is fine..... was shining in the morning and when i got back, it was raining heavily..... thank god we reached home..... some says raining is good, berkat.... but, for me, raining is a sign to ask me to sleep..... and yes, like normal routine, after sholat hari raya, i slept for couple of hours until my parents wake me up to go and prepare my 'new baju kurung' and go and take shower..... it was after shower and was about to put on HUGO BOSS perfume when my mum when inside my room and say to me, "ko pakai tu nanti ambik wudhu sah ke...." there goes again.... the hari raya nag...... hehehehehehe.... nvm, even without HUGO BOSS, i still look fine as ever.... right???!!! straight out of home and to the car......

dad hands me the car keys and it's a sign that, i should drive.... luckily i've already had enough sleep so thast i wont put my family's life at risk..... drove to my cousin's grandparent place first..... then together we went to our grandparents place at eunos...... by then, the rain had already stops..... luckily, i didn't had to drive.... my shift is over...... now is my dad's turn to drive..... i can only shake leg.... huakakakakakakaa.....

did quite a few house..... end our last house at about 2230hours.... was really tired and exhausted..... somemore, i had to have enough sleep as i'm working tommorow...... well, hari raya every year is memorable...... especially me and my cousin gets together and become insane.... too bad, he have to book in early tommorow plus im working..... well, as you all just read..... we had quite a day..... to end the entry, i just wanna wish you a very Selamat Hari Raya..... Maaf Zahir dan Batin.....

Puasa itu satu perintah
Oleh Allah yang maha perkasa
Perintah itu jangan dibantah
Wajibnya itu pada yang berkuasa

Sehari sudah lesu berpuasa
Hidangan berbuka sudah tersedia
Jangan kamu membazir masa
Mulai beribadat semasa belia

Dingin di perigi waktu pagi
Berkokok ayam ditengah laman
Aidil fitri menjelma lagi
Tamatlah ujian bagi yang beriman

Disisir diandam dengan cekap
Potong rambut pelbagai gaya
Puasa sebulan sudahlah lengkap
Kita menyambut Hari Raya

Lemah lembut tuan puteri
Berhias pandai cantik dipandang
Meriah menyambut Aidilfitri
Sahabat handai datang bertandang

Sungguh rendang pohon rumbia
Tempat persinggahan sianak kera
Ketupat rendang sudah tersedia
Jemputlah semua menjamu selera

Tanpa mengira miskin kaya
Pangkat kedudukan hamba sahaja
Sama-sama menyambut raya
Maaf-maafan dihari bahagia

Negara kita aman sentosa
Jangan dilupa orang terinyanya
Makan sudah baju bergaya
Orang fakir jangan dilupa

ok.... today is gonna be one hard day..... the thought of cleaning the house is not just thoughts, it is now action..... as usual, im just another lazy bum who don't like cleaning the house.... kalo tau takpe.... took a shower after i woke up.... clean abit here and there and finally resting in my bed.... the problem is, im resting more than i clean... it's getting dark here and i bet it's gonna rain soon.... as i saw in the papers, if the raining season starts, the psi thing will eventually drop.....then there'll be no more haze.....

yeap two more days to hari raya..... im sure im gonna eat like mad.... and im gonna be really fat.... especially menikmati hindangan dan jaduah raya..... haizz... definitely food fiesta... all the different kind of rendang, lepat, lontong, ketupat...... definitely crazy.... well, i hope i survive the food fiesta thing, and i think, it dont really matters cause rit now, i can consider as underweight..... due to some physical training and hobbies, i can't really go fat.... i can only say im gonna be fat but can grow fat...... maybe someone can help me solve this problem.... hmmmm...

today was very depressing..... woke up early in the morning got nag because of not locking the main door last night..... i was not on purpose because i tot someone hasn't returned home..... i admit it was my mistake and i wont blame someone else..... i was not the first, not the second, but many times..... ok, im just a bad child in the family.... then when im woke up...... they plan to go out today and i didn't know that.... suddenly everybody was dress up except me....i was so totally shock..... with their sarcasm, they approach me, NAK IKOT TAK???.. as usual, i look at the face and turn away...... memang ada anak lelaki tu tak bleh harap..... remember, u guys only remember my bad moments, my mistakes, but my good mistakes is all u forget..... my good deeds, u didn't appreciate..... i'm not scolding u for this matter, but this is what is happening to the world.... people dont appreciate kindness..... that's it i have to go.... happy deepavali...

today, when i went arab street to buy something to breakfast, there was this kid.... he wanted to buy air katira.... but then, he only got $1.000 and the air cost $1.50.... luckily i was there.... so i treat him air katira and i bought 2 for myself and my workmates.... but after i paid for him, he gave me his coins.... mostly 10 cents and 20 cents.... then i told him it's ok.... i dont want my pocket to tear.... hehehehe.... aniway, for ur info, i am now so called an official alarm plus wake up call..... if anybody wants to study late night and need some assistance on waking up, just msg.... i'll gladly do my job.... thanks eh!!!!! :D

ramadhan is over and most of the people is very aware that hari raya is approaching.... while most of them is preparing for hari raya, they are unaware of ramadhan's leaving.... a blessful month which we are looking forward is about to leave..... there is still terawih which most of u wondering why solat terawih...... take a look below and ask why???

21. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh satu
Allah S.W.T akan membina untuknya sebuah mahligai di dalam syurga yang diperbuat dari cahaya.

22. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh dua
Ia akan datang pada hari kiamat di dalam keadaan aman dari sebarang huru-hara pada hari tersebut.

23. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh tiga
Allah S.W.T akan membina untuknya sebuah bandar di dalam syurga daripada cahaya.

24. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh empat
Allah S.W.T akan membuka peluang untuk dua puluh tahun ibadat bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut.

25. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh lima
Allah S.W.T akan mengangkat seksa kubur darinya.

26. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh enam
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan pahala empat puluh tahun ibadat bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan solat Tarawih pada malam tersebut.

27. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh tujuh
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan kepadanya kemudahan untuk melintasi titian sirat sepantas kilat.

28. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh lapan
Allah S.W.T akan menaikkan kedudukannya seribu darjat di akhirat.

29. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Keduapuluh sembilan
Allah S.W.T akan mengurniakan kepadanya pahala seribu haji yang mabrur.

30. Kelebihan Solat Tarawih Malam Ketigapuluh
Allah S.W.T akan memberi penghormatan kepada orang yang bertarawih pada malam terakhir dengan firman-Nya (yang bermaksud): Wahai hambaku!, makanlah segala jenis buah-buahan yang Engkau ingini untuk dimakan di dalam syurga dan mandilah kamu di dalam sungai yang bernama salsabil serta minumlah air dari telaga yang dikurniakan kepada Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. yang bernama Al-Kautsar.

to people who i know who don't believe about having sahur early in the morning, here are some knowledge for you to know.... cheers~

Ibn Umar ra. meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah SAW bersabda: "Sesungguhnya Allah dan para malaikatNya mengirim rahmat ke atas mereka yang memakan sahur."

3:40AM..... harrr... its started with the chord G, C, E, C, D, and back again..... i've created a new song.... and it's very emotional.... im not sure why im creating a new emotional song but, it's very pleasant to the ear.... for those who like emo, u gonna love this.... trying out to make the lyrics more indie but, as usual, still trying.... hopefully this would turn out great..... dedicated for people who is in the states, who cannot come back for hari raya..... also dedicated to wan, who is also going to states in november..... and people who i love, i hate most, and people who is in need, u guys gave me the inspiration..... not forgetting my makcik reading this, thanks for supporting me..... eeeehhhhhh!!!!!..... ingat nak amik award ke nak thanks here, thanks there!!!!!!..... lagu blum kluar kat radio nak step dedicate!!!!!.... piiiii darrrr!!!!!.........

its 1721 hrs..... still got one and a half hour to go.... im so freaking hungry because i haven't yet ate a decent meal for my few days of breaking fast.... its started last thursday when i was working at night.... didn't really ate a good meal but manage to stay long for the night.... then comes saturday.... ate only kokokrunch for dinner an yes, it gain back my energy... then on saturday, ate bubur from masjid kampung alkaff while doing the ramadhan on wheels.... appear on the news again.... oh my god.... and on sunday, i only drink my homemade tea-o-ice at work..... ooooooo.... so that's my history of my "not decent" dinner... hopefully today i can get something heavy to munch.... till then, have a good fast.... and dont forget terawih..... cos i've miss alot these days.....

friday is freaky day facing a front facade of the floating ferry factoring five few factory mens feeling fact mood, faddish, faking Fahd ibn Abdel Aziz al-Saud fellowships for fetishist, finishing a festal festival for fun and fame.... fraking follocks!!!!

today i went to school and sign my attendance and went back home.... hahahaha.... that's school and i wish if school would be like that everyday..... im gonna catch you, me and dupree movie..... so, have fun and enjoy the day.... if im not tired, i'll update later tonight..... cheerios..

it's 0345am and im still playing my guitar... im crazy..... hehehehe.....

last night was cool... stayed out late until today i cant wake up.... hehehe.... not really..... my house sink pipe was stuck and we need to call the plumber..... so i had to stay home to wait for the plumber to come..... so was watching amazing race while waiting for those plumber.....

last night, was a great confession night.... my companion told me everything which i need to know..... everything, why people now dont like me, why people now think my character has changed....... well, the answer is, i never change.... i am what i always is..... im a hater, not a lover... hate is my strength, love is my weakness.... that's is all about me....

well, i dont want to go round talking bads bout people thoughts and rubbish... so, let's lay back and relax..... it's still a long way.... fun is just about to start..... yeap.... this weekend im totally occupied.... not work for sure.... saturday i have ramadhan-on-wheels..... some events which we give hampers, food vouchers to the needy..... we will go to their home and give them the items.... hmmmm... it's my 4th year involving myself with this project..... sometimes its sad to hear stories from them, especially when they broke into tears..... it's a good experience though and we learn lots of things from them.... how they manage to survive with only a few penny.... hhhmm.... looks like things had been said, so that's it.... sign out, cheers....

i went to bazaar geylang today.... so much people i've seen.... hehehe.... after that, went home and have a goog thoughts, dreams, thinking.... today was so relaxing.... nobody disturb me... nobody called me.... that was so peaceful.... was turning off the light and lit up my incense and turn on my bed lamp... a very chill moment and i tune up nelly furtado folklore songs..... after a good day at geylang, i wanted to come to this..... so have it thinking.... it's quite a poet..

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