todae, 30th december 2004...... got class at 0900..... as usual, mama kejut kul 0800.... went to johor yesterdae with khai, latif, syafiq taha, fir, shufi and company until 0400.... luckily i can wake up.......... had shower, ate nasi lemak then watch tv for awhile before rushing off to school..... plan to leave at 0915..... then wait for my sis to tumpang her to skool...... reach skool 0945..... oklah tu....... study maths.... then on laptop, play laptop in class..... kena horn by lecturer but still carry on playing laptop........ todae got 2 hours lunch break.... i go home during my lunch break.... at home, eat nasi lemak then i go sleep for awhile..... then wake up, 1500 oreadi.... i quickly take a shower then i go take bus to skool........ i confrim late....... reach skool at 1545....... luckily lecturer never horn....... i and him kamcing.... then got ael tutorial.... study abit in class..... then after class went straight to town.... met boy, sham, ahmad, izatti, ryna and mail....... watch movie, meet the fockers....... quite an interesting show..... after the show, we relek at gallery...... then we eat ice-cream, took the train at somerset at we went straight home..... that's all folks.....

what have i learn today:

2 words - ASS HOLE

kuang kuang kuang kuang

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LYNN!! SMILE ALWAYS !!

merry christmas.... hohohoho....... well, 25th December 2004.... HAPPY BIRFDAE WAN AHMAD!!!!!!!! atlast somebody is 19 year old........ woke up at around 10 plus..... first thing, took a shower then straight to the void deck to repair my bike!!!! wanted to go tong aik but half way, rain many-many........ then go back..... cannot tahan.... eyes very the pain...... then go back, take a shower again..... then siap-siap nak pegi city hall.... jumpa budak-budak 4PM.... promise them 230 at city hall interchange but atlast every body come late..... the only people who arrive first is me(of course), boy, asryna and azhar...... treat them lunch at sakura.... then hashim came along... then we went to coffee bean at funan the IT mall... I drop azhar hot chocolate..... shiznit..... drop on my lacoste shirt.... and my pants... and my white adidas forum shoe..... damn..

after the accident, eventually, we got another drink for free..... wow!!!! thanks coffee bean...... then carry on with our chatting...... then asryna called sabrina(chong), hashim asked:

hashim: sabrina kat maner??
asryna: sabrina kat outram
hashim: huh?? kat atrium????

then we talk about dikir barat...... told azhar bout our percussionist to wear shades during our performance.... then boy osso want to wear shades but he's in the aok-aok..... i say:

me: aok-aok maner bleh pakai cermin mata hitam!! dah tak asli arh!!!
boy: asli tak asli... aper kisah!!!
hashim: arh!!!! hasni pun pegi!!!!!

kuang kuang kuang....... pak mat tempeh, vrooom..... vroooom.... vroooom...... kelepoop..... kena langgar motorcar...........

had a great laugh for that..... hashim hashim....... tulah, aku suruh ko korek telinga taknak...... nanti kiter gi watson samer-samer eh.... dah gitu, bahari came...... join us for the high tea....... then after chatting, sabrina pun sampai..... she bought coffee then we proceed straight to peninsula plaza... hashim wanted to buy a cap.... atlast, we spent on t-shirts..... i bought a slim tie... that's all..... pocket koyak arh beb.... takleh shopping....... spent most of the day at penin.... new shopping list:

ben sherman shirts
merc harrington

after window shopping, we proceed to city hall...... adibah, lydiana and lyn was there...... saw syafiq and natasha too.... chat with syafiq and natasha...... teringat lagi zaman-zaman balik lambat kejar last train..... chat wif them for a few minutes then we proceed to marina square..... had our dinner there...... they ate cavana..... well, i didn't eat...... drank bandung and went off early to meet rafiq, latip and wan.... took the wrong bus..... went to boat quay, then to clark quay, then to mohamad sultan road, then to great world...... finally orchard road.... then caught in the jam....... shiznit...... dalam bas macam budak bodoh....... the stupid thing is, the bus-stop at every bus-stop..... takde org pun dier stop.... tu tak pasal..... nobody at the bus-stop yet he open the door..... takde keje ke ni driver...... i no comments..... memang keje dier kot...... reach starbucks coffee around 915...... i was shock sham and khairul babe was there....... had our jokes...... bebual pasal epie pakai army uniform..... fuyooo!!!! confirm hensem berg!!!! talk craps until 10 plus..... pastu kiter balik arh........... slept in the bus..... gerek!!! kene air-con... fuyoooo... trus tak ingat dunia........ sampai interchange plan nak buat tutorial..... dah sampai rumah tgk katil, haizz..... besok pun bleh buat tutorial per!!!!!!!!!!

today, christmas eve..... 24 december 2004........ finish skool at 1 todae..... promise the 4PM volenteers to meet me at ngee ann... ryna arrive first taking a cab.... i was surprised...... then while waiting for the others, i and her went to the bazzar 4 christmas at atrium...... she wanted to buy an antique phone that cos $80..... wow!! but unfortunately, she didn't..... too bad.... i'm proud to have one of that phone...... but i have no place to put that phone.... maybe i'll arrange my room and try to stuff it some place that can be seen..... khekhekhekhe.... ok back to the story..... after jalan-jalan at teh bazaar, we proceed to the bus stop to fetch syafiq, boy, sabrina, mamat and mail...... then went to straight to canteen 1 to have our lunch.... after lunch, sabri join us.... we lepak, eat ice kacang..... then after eating ice kacang, we went to orchard.... sabri didn't join us because he had plans in the evening..... mail already left.... didn't know where he went.... left few of us.... took bus to to KAP then took 174 to orchard road....

at orchard road, we proceed to pacific plaza.... did some window shopping.... went to DC shop there.... there was this DC belt.... cost abt $69..... fuyooo... power!!!! very the nice..... then went to wisma top shop to meet izzati and mail..... i was surprised he was there.... sekejap-sekejap hilang.... hhhmmm.... went to topshop.... thought of finding some t-shirts.... but sumer tak lawa..... then we proceed to cineleisure.... had our dinner there.... i ate bbq turkey bacon meal.... after eating that, we went up... thought of watching movie together but i disapprove..... i would rather spent time together.... we went to e-zone, boy blanja.... yay!!! played daytona..... i won 1st!!!!! oh well, a racer is always a racer.... what else could i say........ then played foosball...... i tag team with mamat..... boi and syafiq is the opposing team.... we let them lead us first.... then finally we catch up...... won 8-7...... again, we are the champions!!!!! khekhekhekhe.... just joking...... then on the way down, everybody start playing gletek-gletek....... i hurt my back..... thanks to boy and ryna..... then went down to heeren...... then i saw this bicycle..... i took picture with that bicycle..... because of that bicycle, i tore my favourite pants..... shiznit.... then we headed to suntec city to have some coffee..... we walk there...had some laughs on the way to suntec..... at city hall, we use the route by citylink...... did some window shopping there...... went inside the adidas shop.... then i saw this adidas bag.... very nice.... cost $69...... ok.... there is 2 things im buying..... then we headed straight to suntec...... went down to the cafe.... on the way down, we went to dedicated some songs..... i dedicated for mamat saying,

To hajaidah, I miss you always, dear!! (followed by Always - Jon Bon Jovi)

after the dedication, we proceed straight to the cafe.... unfortunately, the cafe is no more a cafe.... it serves food as well.... they offer us buffet.... what the fuck.... i just ate and they asking me to eat again.... then i plan about sitting at the fountain...... treat them ice lemon tea using m ez-link again.... i can't remember how many times have i used my ez-link to buy Mcdonald's........ then we walked up to the fountain and take a chill over there..... sang songs with ryna.... spent quite a long hours there...

finally, we went home... i wanted to take the bus but boy treat me for a taxi ride.... syafiq force me inside the taxi..... i was stunned.... well, someday i'll repay him back.... thanks my bloody pisang for the ride.... eventually, the day end with happiness, fun and laughter.... hopefully everyday can be this great.... merry christmas to you and have a pleasant weekend....

todae, i woke up at 7 o crock....... today i thought class start at 8..... i got take shower then take vespa to school........ then reach school oreadi i confident go to class 02-09...... then come in, the student very the shiok....... they say i not in this class.... i osso abit shocked.... then i see timetable.... then got put my class start at 10.... walland, i paisey paigor....... i quickly go out then i go home...... waste my time only wake up early early morning...... then i go bakc eat breakfast at home, relek-relek watch tv........tkhen around 9 plus i go back school.... study study study..... i got join this group... the leader leader want to act like hero...... dont know anything but claims that he knoes everything..... well, i as normal.... relek-relek... make him do the the work bcoz he knoe everything oreadi..... then after that, got lunch.... as normal, go canteen one..... meet bonkers..... got talk cock until cannot talk...... then we go for waa class.... waa class the teacher very the nice.... the teacher eurasian..... i dunno from where she sesat....... study study study..... make fun and laughter in class..... then class end at 145..... suppose to end at 3.... walland, the teacher very the power....... let us leave very the early....... if like this every week confirm very the shiok!! then i go back to canteen one to relek-relek with my bonkers again.... relek-relek, talk cock again....... disturb the minahs...... then around 5 plus i go back...... i relek at home for a while...... then mother come... got cook kangkong with ikan goreng..... after eat, sholat maghrib then go meet shafiee..... the extend guy from sabah today come home...... i meet shafiee around 815 at kranji..... then we move to woodlands.... after woodlands we walk to johor kastam...... abit tiring..... after reaching oreadi, we fill up the kad putih.... then proceed straight to the immigration counter...... then go to change money at johor.... the eat at yamani cafe.... eat roti john mushroom and roti john blackpepper..... very the nice..... after eating oreadi, we got to search bus to senai international airport........ search until very the sian.... we spent 30mins to find the correct bustop which the bus stops to senai airport.... then we come to kota raya where the bus is station there......... then we go inside senai airport city lounge..... buy the bus tickets and i bought keychain for boy and ryna bcoz before i leave sabah they got buy for me very nice guitar...... very the sweet of them.... then around 1020, the bus take off......... 40mins ride.... i sleep inside the bus...... then when i reach oreadi, my face very the crumple..... like just woke up..... azhar, nuraini and raudah has oreadi arrive...... then they got saw us.... they very the shock...... then we go have a drink and chat for a while...... got see pictures then the flight from kota kinabalu just landed.... we very the happy..... then i and shafiee get ready to surprise them.... kak saa'dah was very shock to see us.... she never expect to see us there...... then i greet the guys....... miss them alot..... specially after bonding together for 18days....... then met jai, ryna...... ryna was again coughing....... told her to take care of herself... then we took picture together...... then after that, i tumpang sabri car....... the family sent me to my house..... then after they sent me, i go home straight.... then at home do my tutorial..... very the sleepy liao..... but what to do, still must continue do tutorial.... tomoro must pass up........ :(

today first dae of school.... yipeee..... very the power lah...... take bus 61 to school...... gerek!!!! but my heart is not here........ still remember my ssabah trip..... wah piang eh.... i miss sabah.... i miss podos...... i miss watching the stars...... i miss the sungai........... i miss all the things there..... i can still remember the last sunset at tanjong aru beach.... that moment was very touching..... it's the last time i gonna spent with the whole team in sabah...... awhhh..... well, today at school was extraordinary...... people was looking forward to see me..... had my first lesson which is analog circuit........ very the sian... study about electrons.... waland, talk about chemistry...... so long never study chemistry then suddenly must remember back.... i sian oreadi..... but what to do, still must endure....... then lunch time ate with bonkers.... they very the happy to see me........ vijay bought scrambler oreadi liao.... very the shiok.... i got try to pop but at last stall....... then after lunch got ita...... the lesson very the boring..... got study about doing ms excel........then after school, got meet apis..... we go johor go make his paintwork.... reach there around 5 plus....... got choose the color... very very nice color we got choose...... then after we finish choose color, we go back singapore...... i go back school.... got takraw training.... i come abit late bcoz got jam at jb...... play until 9 plus... then wwant to go, i got see my bike key broken.... walland, i very the panic....... i quickly go to my bike see the another half got stuck inside.... heng arh never stuck..... i take fauzi new bike go back..... then return back to school..... luckily got spare key.... if not, confrim die one!!!!!! then after i sleep sleep sleep...... until cannot sleep but i still sleep....

Every love stories have heroes and heroines. Every love stories ends with a happy ending. Except for some, why? It's because of Sacrifice.

after all the hard work in kampung podos..... like what i expected, this day will will finally come.... today, 18th december 2004, the last day in sabah... the most fun and emotional expedition i've ever been too... i slept quite late last nite... woke up and realise it was already 11 plus... took my shower then i and sabri proceed to centerpoint to catch our breakfast + lunch... ate pizza hut... fir, nuraini and remy also tag along with us... after lunch, we went to an express shopping... i bought t-shirts for my family... didn't think twice... i just grab as many as i could... sorry ryna i bought without u.... then we rush back to the hotel because there are gonna be briefing at 1... when we reach, i heard a sad news... my buddy, shafiee, his grandmother pass away last wednesday... i straight away went up to him... his eyes were red and teary... i could still remembers these words he uttered:

shafiee: rabak sey diorang, skarang baru nak bilang...

i really felt for him the moment he said that... it's really bad to lost our grandparents... how i would wish to have a grandmother... it's my destiny and i'll have to accept it...

after comforting him, i pack my stuffs... then, we went for another round of shopping... we went to redevelop our rafting picture first... boy, mamat, sabri, syafiq, pak tam, jai and asryna and me were together at the photoshop... then i, sabri and syafiq went back hotel to do our zuhur... after zuhur we proceed to the handicraft center... sabri bought alot of t-shirts for his family... i bought some "alas meja" for my mum... 3 for RM10... hehehehehe... then we proceed back to the hotel for some briefing... actually, not a briefing... its like a sharing session or summarise session for the whole entire expedition... everyone get to say a few words but not me... while listening, ryna wrote me a letter on my YEP journal... it was a very touching letter... thanks ryna...

after the sharing session, its prize presentation time... my cooking team got the "kepala ko boleh buat batu nisan" award.... i, azhar and my fellow buddy, shafiee, got the "podos fitness award"... hehehehehe.... like i say, im always fit... after the prize presentation thing, we took a cab to tanjung aru beach... we got there in time for sunset... the scenery was really nice... we took pictures together... took my picture with my buddy, shafiee... then with others too... after taking pictures, i went for my quiet moment alone...

then, i went to take wuduk and sholat maghrib... after sholat we ate our dinner... i didn't eat much... i was writing a letter to kak saa'dah and also to asryna... after our meal, i went to the sourvenoir shop with pak tam, mail, syafiq... went to find some postcards... then asryna and boi arrived... thought of buying t-shirt then theres no size for ryna... too bad... so i just bought postcards... then on the way back, i bought a light stick using battery(batteries included)... ryna bought the same one as mine too... i went to the beach to see the effect of the light stick... the beach area was dark... so i play with the light stick like some kids playing with "bunga api"... i jump, run and had my final moments in sabah before going off to singapore... then we assemble and finally went back... before going back, the whole team went to the sourvenoir shop which i went just now... they spent some time to do some final shopping... then after that we went back to the hotel... i pack my bags... on the way down, i gave asryna which i mad in kampung podos... thank her for accompany me throughout the whole expedition... thanks for the teasing....

on the bus, i just laid back... my heart was beating very fast... i feel like crying... i could only smile all the way... i rarely talk to anyone... upon reaching the airport, i help with the luggage... the when i alight the bus, everbody was saying goodbye to each other... i feel very sad... so i went to one corner where nobody would see me... i gave kak saa'dah the flower and the letter... she was talking to shafiee... i quickly turn away... then when i was to pack my things, boy and asryna approach me... boy thank me for taking care of him... i was really touched... he gave a gift... at that moment i just couldn't take it... tears start falling... boy comfort me... was very memorable experience... we shake hands with each other... some cried... did some final dance at the airport together... then photo taking session... after that, it's time to depart... had the last sentence with everybody... then there's one event i won't forget... somebody read my letter inside the bus on the way to airport... shiznit.... i was totally blow... i should have give that letter before i leave for the aiport... well, i would eventually treasure our friendship as what you've wrote to me,

"Really treasure the whole 18 days with you. Take care bro! I hope our friendship will always last."

today i dont have anything to write...
i can only remeer this song being played at the roof of city park inn hotel...
thanks that somebody for the lyrics...
it was written,

a hundred days have made me older
since the last time that i saw i your pretty face
a thousand miles have made me colder
and i dont think i can look at this the same

and all the miles have separate
they disappear now when i dreaming off your face

im here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
im here without you baby
and i dream about you all the time
im here without you baby
and you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight, it's only & me

the miles just keep rolling
and the people leave their way to say hello
i've heard this life was overrated
but i hope that it gets better as we go

im here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
im here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl its only you and me

everything i know,and anywhere i go
it gets hard but it wont take away my love
and when the last one falls
when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it wont take away my love

im here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
im here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl its only you and me

todae got wake up very the early....... then sabri, pak tam and fir sholat subuh..... they very the funny...... 6 plus then they want to sholat.... actually syuruk is at 5 plus...... but they dunno..... then after sholat we pack our things.... i pack my bag very neatly...... put all the stuff inside the bag..... then my bag very the heavy...... after pack bag then went to shower..... then after shower we ate breakfast.... got 2 singaporean cook for us toast, hotdogand telur mata lembu..... after breakfast we together gether got look for stuffs like sabun and colgate and berus gigi...... go borong at ther supermarket...... the 303 got buy one carton cigarette..... after thes shopping, we quickly take our bags put downstairs at the hotel entrance...... we help with the boxes and put inside the truck first........ then our bags we place at the bus...... some of the box we put at our bus....... unfortunately, i no place to sit..... then i just sit down on the floor near the bus door....... a 2 hour ride to kota belut........ we sang in the bus together from one song to another...... when we reach kota belut, we ate our lunch....... the kedai kopi is quite antique...... very the old skool type..... had our lunch there.... then after lunch, we boarded the bus again...... then remy realise that he forget the banner.... then he rush out the bus..... kak jam ask me to follow him... i tailed him...... then went to the kedai kopi to search but cannot find...... in the end, we just go back to the bus....... then in the bus, he realise the banner is inside the bus..... what a gundooo...... make people kancong for nothing....... then we headed to kampung podos...... we must get to taginambur..... from kota belut to taginambur is a 45mins ride....... watch the nice scenery..... padis field, mount kinabalu, the clouds..... it was alll very nice...... i was very sad that my camera was spoil...... i only get to take the pictures before boarding the plane....... then we reach taginambur, we unload our stuffs and we take pictures together..... then took picture at the kg podos signboard...... asryna ask me to take a picture of her with her sony digicam...... then,i took pictures of her, then the scenery.... then we had to play some games...... the game is to know how as much people around us....... then i headed to the the shop..... there are locals sitting at the shop..... there were also dogs...... quite a number of them....... we talk to the locals there, we took pictures with them..... then after doing knowing each other, we were called back.... the lorry from kg podos arrive..... some of them went first on the first lorry...... then i went on the second lorry..... the other took the big lorry..... anoter 20mins ride to kg podos... it was a camel ride...... there road was not a tarmac..... just stones..... very bumpy ride...... went up and down some very steep slope.... had to endure the bumpiness until we arrive...... on the the time we arrive, like just expected, it was very kampong style.... unload our cargos, backpacks........ again, number of dogs were coming at us..... i was quite panic osso...... went straight to the school hall coz we gonna overnight there...... then we releks, take picture together........ then did some briefing n orienteering.... there was no tap water, no eleectricity...... we osso went to the project site where we had to rebuild the old wreck house into a resource center..... theres alot of things to work on...... but that is the behind story..... we headed straight to the sungai which are to bath there..... very like gunung ledang air terjun....... the water osso was very cold....... im gonna shower in the open for 15 days..... hhmmm.... after the briefing and orienteering, its our shower time..... i took out the used cothes which i wore yesterday..... wash them manually with brush and sabun buku...... very the old skool....... after washing, its bathing time...... i slowly let the river water flow on my body..... fuyooo..... very the cold...... what to do..... must endure...... then after bathing, i set up tali for jemuran...... then organise our sleeping area.... put canvas sheets.... by the time we organise the things, it was oreadi nightfall..... there was no electricity...... is was very dark...... we sholat berjemaah together with the whole team..... then after sholat we ate dinner which bro andy bought us..... after dinner, did some chatting and after that, ligths off......

today 1st december 2004.... got wake up in the morning at 0900 hours...... got book taxi van to mendaki...... van go to sabri house first.... then after that go my house then to syafiq house....... after syafiq house got go mamat house and boy house......after take everybody, mendaki here we come..... we relek-relek inside van... got make-make jokes...... then when we reach mendaki. we go straight to vru(volunteers relation unit) room.......... sabri go take care of the computer inside the lounge.... then i pack the facilitator box and the final box for the education things...... did the final invoice..... photocopy all the invoice and check all the logistic items....... wah... very the sian liao........ then went up to the meeting room go timbang everybody bag... make sure cannot exceed 10kg..... then give out Podos white t-shirts........ then after that, i relek...... wuhooo.... amlaina and adibah got come.... i very the shock........ then talk to them..... talk about school and work...... we talk talk talk....... take pictures and take more pictures....... then got one member, her name is mas, got approach me because she want the t-shirts...... i got tell her the t-shirts already pack put inside the box...... then i told her i can keep for her.... until go back then i give her..... then i relek-relek again until kak jam gave us the briefing........ then we get ready pack our things....... brought everybody bags down to the bus...... then take the logistics box to the the bus.... board the backpacks into the bus...... then after every thing arrange oreadi, we take picture....... take picture with the whole team at the office......... then everybody start crying oreadi.... very the sad.... then proceed to the bus.... we relel-relek inside bus.... go to woodlands checkpoint....... then after woodlands checkpoint go to straight to Senai Airport... then at senai i got meer boy's parents..... they wait for us at there........ i approach them....... talk with them...... then we got take eat our lunch.... after that, everybody get back to the luggage counter...... settle the air tickets and luggage.... we exceed out total baggage weightage... so we had to pay for the excessive weightage.... then after all clear alreadi, we go up to the departure hall..... we relek-relek again.... take many-many pictures....... then got anouncement...... our flight have been delayed till 1840...... wait until like hell then finally the plane arrive... we together queue up....after everybody has already board in.... we together walk in to the gate..... the plane is waiting for us outside.... so we must go down and maunally take the stairs.... we take our pictures together outside the airplane..... then inside the airplane we do usual stuffs..... talk, hear discman....... then after takeoff, the steward and the stewardess start selling food... i got buy keropok, air soyabean....... then later after eating the foods, we eat noodles........ sabri went to the back..... left me and mamat and burg... we ate maggi me instant noodles... after that, rest until we reach kota kinabalu airport....... we went to the imigration counter to surrender our pasport for checking....... after that, we realise that the advance party was waiting for us outside....... we happily wave at them... as usual, after the paspot thing, we went straight to the baggage area to collect our bags at the conveyor belt....... after everything settle, everybag has been counted and everything is confirm, we proceed straight to the bus with ou luggage, backpacks and boxs...... then we realise that mamat's bag was mistaken........ somebody mistook his bag....... he was really mad..... the whole thing has to be delayed again.... went to the air asia office to settle things out....... eventually, most of the team members were tired... andy told us to go to the hotel first.... so, the team proceed first with the other baggage.... when we reach the hotel, we assemble at the rooftop..... lepak-lepak with the teams then we andy came up with mamat...... they couldn't contact the person who mistook the bag... mamat got a RM80 compensation..... after andy's briefing, we headed to our room.... i share room with fir, mail, pak tam, bos and sabri...... very the kecoh..... we sholat isyak and jamak maghrib........ then went down to have our dinner....... had ikan bakar plus some other dishes........ after eating, we headed back to our rooms and finally, buzz off to sleep....... what a tiring day...