The air outside is chill. Road very quiet. Pavement is empty. Nobody was nowhere to be seen. Time now is 0253 hours. No mood to sleep. Just got back from work. Today was not that busy. It seems that my workplace is very interestin'. Even no matter how tired we are, we always stay cool because there are many waitresses. They are damn pretty specially when they are in their banquet suit. Looks like an office girl. Even I get interested in one of them. I'm not sure if I could still carry one pretending to be normal because whenever she pass by my office, I can't stop takin' a glance of her. Hmm, maybe its time to change. Be a lover, not a hater. Khekhekhe. Its just a dream to be a lover. It appears in my dreams during at night but halfway through, I will suddenly wake up.Well, should I complete the dream or repeat it?? Maybe it's another question without an answer. Only the Almighty knows!!

To reach the highest peak, we must start with the lowest first!! Same goes for our life. It's like climbin' a mountain. Follow the right path and you will go higher. Turnin' left or right will never get anywhere..

Leaning on the wall while watching tv, resting my legs after the long walk at East Coast with a friend, Latiff. Went there to book BBQ but unfortunately the shop was close. Too bad for us...

Today, 18th February, will be a day to remember. A day of miracle. Without Him, I would probably stuck at BBDC. Well, it happens just now. I took my first practical Traffic Police test. I doesn't have any confident. I did badly durin' my warm up. Beatin' the ambere light, never check blindspot and right turnin' without checkin' the oncomin' traffic. And guess what, I got the number 81 tag on my shirt. The last tag was 90. So I am the 9th last person to the the test on that day. Test started at 0900 hours. I had time to call Mum because she is the only want I could talk to as nobody knows today I'm takin' practical test except for my family. I did great at the circuit. Only a bit of wobble on my bike during moving off. When off to the road, there's a taxi, I'm not sure what the hell he think he is. He suddenly stop. I'm not quite sure why he did stop because there was no passenger inside the taxi. Luckily I was alert. Took my initiative went pass beside the taxi as I'm too lazy to do lane change. I know I was doin' wrong. The tester saw it. I was hopeless after the incident. After doin' the U-turn, I proceed to a straight road. We were suppose to turn left. An L car was in front of me doin' slow. I was damn freak out ab obout the incident just now. Then it came at the T-junction. Lights were red. I was thinkin' what's happenin' to me. I'm gonna fail. Lights burst into green. The first few bikes then start rollin' but this bloody car was damn bloody slow. I was stuck at the road in the middle between two cars, one infront and one at the back. Slowly the car infront turn right. Without patience,I whack to the left and when I was about to turn, the bloody damn light change to orange. I was panic and don't know what to do. I don't expect this to happen. I could only ignore the ambere light and proceed. Damn I felt hopeless. Everythin' seems so messed up. After a hard moment on the road, park my bike and went straight to the lobby. My fren treat me a hot tea. Few moments later, it was time to go for classroom 4 to view the results. I was hopeless and disappointed. Sittin' at the back of the classroom, with my frens. The testers then came in. My tester were the few ones to appear first. They say, if your name is not called, the chances of passing is high. My tester called my fellow group frens name but didn't even mention mine. Just after he said the 3rd, he then left. I was wonderin' why my name is not called. I waited for other tester to arrive until the last tester came in, said few names, and without warnin', he congratulates all of us. I was stunned for a moment. I could not even think. I jump into madness. And guess what, I did pass 50/50. Khakhakha.. Damn, today is Miracle. Try buyin' a 4D and I'm sure it's gonna strike... Khakhakhakha....

Staring to the dark side as the light behind me became brighter. It was 0630 hour when I went to do cyclin' alone. Quiet mornin', not much lorries, cars and motorbikes. Only could see the elderlies do some joggin' and some strecthin'. I'm the only one on bikes at the park. Did some chin-ups but can't do much cause my stomach was growlin'. Get to see the period where the dark changes to dawn. I was quite amazed by the scenery. That is what I like about nature. Amazing scenery makes me think positive even when I feel sad. Hmm.. Anyway, I'm feelin' damn sleepy right now. I only slept for 3 hours last night. Maybe because it's Valentine's day. Well, it's over. No use talkin' about it now.

Today, Valentine's day, I witness couples get together datin' each other. That is so great. Respect, love, peace, appreciation is what I saw today and this is what I don't want to see for myself...... Wish you all Happy Valentine's day and to those girls who had crush on me includin' GAYS, today you'll have my love. ONLY TODAY...

Thinkin', thinkin', thinkin'..... Todae, have an interview at ShangRi La Sentosa. Then, I accidently book for my self-practice lesson today. Damn, which one should I go?? Both clash at the same time. Think, think, think...

Time is 0000 hours. I just stare at the TV while Coldplay is givin' words of appreciation. They just won the GRAMMY'S!!!!! Khakhakhakha...... What a joke!!!

Today, well, now I'm watchin' the NFL superbowl match between the 'Patriots" against the 'Panthers". I could say a hunter against the predator. Of course the hunter is winnin'. Who cares. Well I just got back from Malacca. Kind of tired here. Dad's doing 100 km/h on the highway. It was f**kin' slow. Every car was like overtakin' our car every second. It was quite a dry day until we hit JB. It was drizzlin' there. Then, it kind of stop when we about arrive at my dad's fren's cribs. At his cribs, we were talking and yapping bout the Hari Raya Haji happenin' yesterday. The people there slaughter some bunch of cows. I couldn't get the chance to see them slaughterin' the cows. But then I heard that one of them get his ass kick by the cows. Haha. Stupidity. Wanna be a hero at least use your f**kin' brains. At least don't get your ass kick by a cow. Lately, I really had a big meal in Malacca. Every time when I step into somebody house, they offer us food. At least try to imagine you steppin' into five houses, you gonna expect five large meals on the table waitin' for you to gulp them. For me is "rezeki". I can't expect this kind of shit everyday. Eating five meals in one day! Huh! It's Heaven. Mum's always cook one meal for me. That includes breakfast till lunch. Sometimes till dinner. Aniway, sorry, I can't wish you bloody people who are readin' this shit 'Selamat Hari Raya Haji'. But, I heard my ustaz say, Hari Raya Haji lasts for three days. Before its too late just wanna wish you MOFO, Selamat Hari Raya Haji. I just hope that my aunty and uncle who is now in Mecca, will have a safe return. Its an honour to go to Haji. I wish I could get there in future. Just not the right time yet. Aniway, thats all folks.

Yesterday is history. Today is present. Tommorow is unpredictable.....